I am not ashamed to say…….

 

I am a Black woman who loves singing,

though singing is clearly not my calling.

I am a Nigerian,

who hates jollof rice

I am a Christian

who knows that the invisibility of the wind does not negate its existence.

I am indecisive,

hence my ambidexterity

I am an artist

who only started drawing 2 years ago.

I am nearly 5 foot 4,

but in mind I’m 6 feet tall and rising.

I love laughing

but in the past 6 weeks I ‘ve done so much crying.

I am a teacher

who loves learning more than teaching

I am a cycling addict

who learnt to cycle 5 months ago

I am overly sensitive

but my exterior may suggest otherwise.

I am a writer

who struggles with self-confidence.

I am a swimmer,

battling against the currents of my own mind

I am a sister

who is blessed with the most supportive siblings a person could hope for.

I am daughter

who cries at the thought of how much I love my mother.

I am a godmother,

blessed with a wonderfully and fearfully created godson.

I am a friend

who uses laughter as a criterion for developing long-lasting friendships.

I am an over-thinker

who continues to struggle with depression.

I am the world’s greatest cheerleader

who struggles to cheer herself on.

I love playing football

but am scared to head the ball.

I have had an eating disorder for over 20 years

but am slowly on my way to recovery.

I want to live

but in the past I wanted to die.

I feel physically strong

but sometimes berate myself for my lack of mental fortitude.

I am a nomad who loves nature

but struggles to stay rooted like trees in the fields.

I am learning to love and accept myself

where once I despised myself.

I believe comparison is the author of all misery,

yet for many years I couldn’t keep my eyes off others.

I love forgiveness

but struggle to drop the hot coals of anger and frustration.

My favourite hobby is laughing.

It’s medicine for my soul.

I write to live,

speech,

At ease!!!

 

 

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One thought on “I am not ashamed to say…….

  1. My very beautiful sister, I might be slow at responding things but with God, I have most times been on perfect time. Though i have not been reading your blogs but I am very sure this us the one God wants me to see. To start with, I am very happy for your current state of mind however I do not feel sorry for where you were coming from. Simply because as a child of God that we are, there is a reason for everything that happens and God told us in Romans 8:28 that ALL things works for our good cos we love God and cos we are called according to GOD’S PURPOSE.
    What u have been through is only cos What God is about to surprise you with is just too big for a feeble mind to understand. U only went through to bring out your strength and that is a major necessity for you success in thus life. So please as do not wallow in self pity anymore cos that’s not what God desires of you but rather God said through James in James 1:2-4 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.
    I therefore rejoice with you now my sister more than ever because you are a Living Testimony abd through you many more lives will be blessed and saved.
    Congratulations on your successful victory. GOD BLESS YOU SO MUCH.

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